It's been about 8 months since Andrew was diagnosed with type 1, 7 months since he was diagnosed with celiac disease and about 1-1/2 months since he was diagnosed with double diabetes. I think things are just now starting to sink in.
It was right before Thanksgiving when we received his diabetes diagnosis. After that was Christmas and we struggled to finish up our homeschooling year while having our whole household turned literally upside down. I never really took the time to grieve since I just dove right in and made sure that Andrew was taken care of.
I'm now realizing that I forgot to take care of someone - ME.
My normal bubbly self is now so tired all the time and I've gained weight. At church today, I had to leave during the beginning music. The words just touch my heart and I break down in tears. I'm just so emotional lately. I excused myself to the bathroom and got myself together. I then ventured to visit Andrew and see what his 1 hour post breakfast was. As he was testing, he said that one of the little girls in his class stood up and announced that her mom now has diabetes. It took all I had to keep it together. I know the family and they are just wonderful people! To me, it doesn't matter if someone has type 1, type 2, type 3, MODY, LADA, gestational, etc... Wherever diabetes shows up, it impacts that person and everyone around them.
My question to all of you: When does it get better?
I know that my healing can only come through the Father. As I got into our car after church, I was overwhelmed as the Lord spoke to me. He told me that my healing will be through helping the newly diagnosed diabetic in our church family. What a blessing!!!! His name will be praised as I explain how He has worked in our lives since Andrew's diagnosis. God ALWAYS knows what we need and when. He wants me to give all my fears and worries to Him which will allow Him to work through me. Amen!